Stopped Haunting Me
Well, it used to be from a sort of standpoint of being a little bit scared of it to be honest when I was a bit younger.1 And then basically I — so I started sort of researching different cultures and how they were, I’ve always been very interested in death as just a sort of thing that we can — just this sort of knowledge that we carry around with us all the time. Why don’t we talk about it more, I always find it kind of really weird that people never really spoke about it that much, and if you’re not religious, then what would it all mean. And then I think — then I did all this work about death, and it’s just exploring how different cultures looked at it really, a kind of thesis, I suppose. And then I listened to this amazing online lecture, it’s from this guy called Shelly Kagan, who’s actually from Yale, I think. And he did this whole series about death. It’s a really interesting series, and the lectures go on and on, it’s like an hour each time, there’s about 15 of them. And then once I’d listened to that, I think I kind of got to this point when I realized that our own death doesn’t really exist, because the only death we experience are other people.
So, it kind of stopped haunting me, and at that point I was like oh, it’s kind of irrelevant, because I don’t believe in an afterlife, so the point I die, doesn’t exist anymore.2 So, I kind of — that’s when I — that was around the same time I decided to start making abstract work as well, so I became much more interested in just that general metaphysics about consciousness and our time being alive, and less focused on images of death.